Countdown!

The Countdown has started: Only 3 days til wednesday, the day I will fly to Kansas City, from now. It´s such a strange feeling. I will miss my mum and my friends, of course. However, I´m still so excited I can´t breathe. Whenever I have nothing to do for a short time this mixture of feeling overwhelms me.I´m afraid of what I´m about to see, to learn, which problems I will have. I´m excited to see my sweet host family and I´m afraid of loosing some friends, because they will go their own ways from now on, for example they begin to work. I think I will miss my mum enormously, we´ve always lived together, side by side, 10 month without her will be a big change. Anyway, all in all I´m just totally confused but most excited!