2011

in every year there exists one day when everything seems rather melancholic (if you don´t drink and party with your friends, which is not really an option right now). New Year´s Eve! That evening you  look back at the past 365 days and experience those unthankful feelings. Regret, for a decision, or also joy you made it. You might feel this itching in your heart that you didn´t get every moment out of it or that you wasted your time. You might be sad the year is over or look forward to the next year with hope for something better. Everyone feels like that in their own way. We have those ridiculous ambitions for the next year, we will never ever fulfill! That´s the average thing. 2011 those feelings seem to be stronger than ever, the only difference is, that I´m not certain if I feel any of it or not. I question myself to much: Was is it right? Do I regret it or was it worth the precious time? Now I´m here in the dreamland America, and don´t even really celebrate the new year. Maybe that´s a good thing for me, but those feeling will hunt me down anyway.
When the clock strikes 12, one has to make a decision and be certain about the feelings you experienced. I´ll wait 'til this moment, however, I´m pretty sure I won´t know this year. 2011 has been different, and will also be in this moment. Maybe I´ll find my answers in 2012. And if not... I at least know that I tried. Have a happy new year y'all. :)